Shortcomings

Psalm 139:14 "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well."

I have a problem: I think I'm awesome. I want to go outside, punch at the air, and scream at the top of my lungs while down the street (I'll pause while you go and do this yourself). I sometimes struggle to contain the elation I have for who I am and the largeness of my own potential. No matter how small my existence is in the larger order of history, I have full confidence that by the end of my life I will have done something for the betterment of everyone around me.

Don't confuse my self-love with any shred of pride or hubris, I think you're awesome too! How difficult it is to be humble with ourselves when God loves every one of us so much! After all, we were "individually knit in our mother's womb" (Psalm 139:13). Whatever your strengths are, whatever your weaknesses are, the guy that invented everything took the time out of his timeless existence to create everything you will be, and more importantly everything you should be. I think it's perfectly acceptable and healthy to be in love with ourselves, even to the extent of a moral egoist. It's when it externalizes and begins to be in the way of our responsibilities and relationships that it transcends into pride or leads to hedonist tendencies.

The sooner you learn who you are the faster you can discover what you should be. I chose to write about what makes us weak as a first post because my intent with this blog is to

 focus on my journey toward spiritual self-actualization through the lens of an (incredibly) amateur philosopher. Call it doing God's work if you'd rather - my 'quarter-life crisis' means moving away from asking who I am to what I need to be doing. I know that I have been given a strong INTJ personality; if I am to develop my spiritual gift of prophecy I need to move past who I am into who God needs me to be.